Torn

Torn between love and hate.
What to do but for their sake.
Watch the days go bye and bye.
Until it almost hurts to stay.
Lonely soul and shallow sea.
Lack of love to embrace him through his time.
He wonders what is out there, for him to see.
A lover to be at his side with he,
is what he yearns for at this time.
Continues down a path with not much hope.
He wonders if he will ever flee,
to the grounds he was born to see.
He does all he can to cope with time.
He makes due with what he has.
For after all he is a dad.

Justify My Love

You put this in me, so now what, so now what?
Wanting...needing...waiting...for you to justify my love, my love.
Hoping...praying for you to justify my love.
I want to know what you want.
Wanting...needing...waiting..

I love Madonna!

NRB adoption

A life created, and always hated
Poisoned in her mothers womb,
eventually took her to her tomb.
Little baby when she came.
Barley knowing her mother's name.
Flowers into a little girl,
when she realizes she is not the same.
A special gift is what she was.
A saddened spirit is all it does.
Floods of emptiness and at times afraid.
Acceptance of those who share her blood is what she craved.
To know her roots, is what she she dreams.
but in the night she often screams.
Hardly ever, fitting in.
she drinks too much as though she's a sin.
Her body fills with poison and never wakes.
Her soul in heaven, is what it takes.

Life is GOOD!

Aside of this nasty economy, I feel GREAT! I finally got a run in on my treadmill & now feel invigorated! CELEBRATE! Yes, I have been listening to Madonna! I know some of my friends would probably gage but she energizes me. Ipods are brilliant. I also had a great time playing with my kids at the park tonight with friends & their families. I love being able to flip & roll around with my kids in the grass. It makes me feel young. I hope this feeling lasts for a long time to come! Fit is it!

feelings of comfort

What an amazing experience I had this weekend. Just in time to push those lonely feelings aside. I needed this. I really did. Just being with some friends and developing deeper bonds on a girls overnight stay. TALK...EAT...DRINK...TALK...EAT...DRINK . A dip in the lake under the moonlight with friends...vulnerable, naked, cold & numbing. Its hard to express the moments we shared. How gratifing to experience all that we did.

twinkle, twinkle, shallow soul...

I look at the stars, as my mind scatters. I then realized that I need to journal. So here I am.


They come, they go.
It's what one knows.
The fear of getting too close is there.
Never anything deep to share.
One strolls along as though they belong,
but an empty spirit, and saddened soul, is truly all that shows.